Twenty-four Candles

Today I'm officially a year older.

This year wasn't at all what I expected it to be but what can I do about it? Complain? No. What good would that do?

Last year as I was having dinner with all of my close friends I wouldn't have imagined going through heartbreak, depression and having to learn how to deal with my anxiety. I thought that this year would be filled with so many good memories of both the guy I was emotionally involved and new memories with my friends. I didn't think I'd lose some of my "close" friends or even find it in me to acknowledge the fact that I was emotionally involved with someone who was so unhealthy for me.  

Thanks to all the stuff I had to go through at the beginning of the year I learned that I had to start loving myself again, learn how to be less co-dependent not only of the person I was emotionally involved with but also from my friends. I decided to love my body and become a healthier person by becoming vegan, I joined the gym today as a birthday present to myself and I no longer drink as much as I used to. in fact, I hardly ever drink now. 

At the end of the day, all those lows I experienced at the beginning of the year helped realize that I need to start thinking of myself first and learn to be on my own and deal with my issues on my own. I can't always expect for my friends to hold my hand through every little bump on the road. From now on I have to learn to remind myself of all the great that I do have in my life and be grateful because no matter how shitty any situation might be, I'll eventially get through it.